For a period of time now I have been experiencing a massive change in myself. I realised all this through self introspection, getting into my deepest thoughts, understanding my emotions and how I view the world around me. I have introspected myself because I wanted to understand the massive changes that were happening, I wanted to realise why I am slowly changing from a person I was all along.
What I have realised is that it is because I am actually growing up even though the term "growing up" still frightens me because I don't think I am ready to get into my grown up panties but I don't have a choice. I have also realise that growing up can do some changes in the way you behave, think and view the world.
My personality has changed tremendously I guess that happens when you turn 21 years (LET ME BRAG), I find myself questioning most of the things I had no problem with when I was a teenager. The way I view the world around me have changed, my opinions on many topics have changed and the way I think have changed too.
Let me just say everything has changed, this is a change that I never imagined when I would imagine a 21 years old Duduzile. This change seemed impossible, I never thought I would question so many things and I never thought I would have such opinions about life and people in general.
But what I can say is that this change is peaceful it did not come with confusion neither did it come with frustration, I am still juggling it trying to find a ground of understanding. For most changes that had taken place in my life they always led me to a war of acceptance and understanding.
It always took me forever to start embracing small changes in my life but this change is easy to embrace, it is easy to understand and it is simple to come to terms with it. This change is clustered by many uncertainties but even though I am frightened by uncertainties, these uncertainties I am in peace with them.
I am embracing these changes, I am at peace with them. I do not know what will happen tomorrow and how will my opinions, views and beliefs will change but as in today I am at peace with my views, with my opinions and with my beliefs. Even if they change tomorrow I know it will be for the better and it will make me a better and greater PERSON.
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