They said there's light in the other side of the tunnel
Then I went through the tunnel
Clouded by positivity I felt no pain.
They said I should not give up
Then I held on to a sharp rope
It bruised my flesh but my spirit was still intact.
They said I should not loose hope
Then I kept hoping for sunshine in the darkness
I held on firmly though I was slowly turning into a lifeless shell.
But no one told me I might not see the sunshine I hoped for
No one told me I might see the other side of the tunnel as a corpse
No one told me the rope I held on to will bruise me to death.
I "strong woman" expected to walk on a laid red carpet
Sit on the throne and be crowned.
After all they said he will stop one day and I will win this war.
Neither did I know that winning this war
Meant talking to my lifeless body from this other side
Meant a brutal death because I declared "I love you".
Maybe had I found someone to tell me I could be a Phoenix
I could rise above the ashes of abuse
Maybe I would have found courage to let go.
Now I am here having this conversation
Looking at my lifeless body
Talking to my left behind dreams
Crying with my loved ones
Wishing they could see me again.